to little boys who love fishing with their grandpas

and the night before the trip
they pack their lines their boots and
squirming worms in rusty tins

and at last the sandman comes
he wears his fishing hat with
reels and rods suspended in both hands

and little boys drift off to sleep
dreaming of the lakes the birds and fish
bologna sandwiches and potato chips

and with bated breath they wait to hear
the tallest tales from him
as he whispers to the hooks and drinks his beer

and like a grandpa he looks at you
an extension of what he holds too dear
his little boy lost beyond the trees

and little boys curl tiny velvet finger tips
accidentally squishing life from crickets
on the docket of super hero honor

and grandpa looks to his little boy
with wonder through lived in eyes
his hand forced to the sentencing

and then the time comes
when all the little boys
who love fishing with grandpa

cast their lines for better or worst times
then when the excitement dies
look grandpa in the eyes

and he sends his good bye
to his little boy in the lake
to fate and life and love and hate

as he has now made a man
born a little boy
to face tribulation and dismay

and at the end of each day
knows that someday
that costume of a man

will shed itself
among the trees that nestle
the lake where the grandpas rest

in wait of all the little boys
returning to cast their final line
weighted by their grandpa’s love

REST IN PEACE
PAUL ARANDA JR.

shattered

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a shattered heart doesn’t break
the series of infinite fractures
create a fucked up woven safety net
it bends stretches runs the length
of the lies insults judgments rejection and pain
that seeps into crevices that were never made
to war against the stains of love and hate
yet it embalms itself only to be humanized again
in the night and the day the morning the evening
the haze and wild wild winds in angel and demon trees
a shattered heart doesn’t melt
it beats to fight and fight again over and over
perpetually and permanently it holds the weight
of those needed by it

letter to a miracle

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have you ever written a letter to a miracle like a boat in the air or a breath underwater slow words rapid thoughts i noticed it amidst looking to the ground of unsure steps and helpless prayer that little miracle with tiny feet travels at the speed of sound into a mystery bound by joyful noises i cannot hear in my letter i tried to say how we drown between the days and nights so swiftly missing out of sight the tiny sticks it offers me to pull me out of misery’s engulfing heart or have you written a post card saying wishing the miracle was here but it pauses for a second looking across the mystical space where it’s tiny face holds the secret

where, my brothers

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mother in her bones, she is troubled again
her veins infiltrated with hate
her flesh her bones kept healthy in the history of bulls for selfish devices
mother sobs once more
where, my brothers
was it the children that went wrong
her maiden name, America the great
where, my brothers
a call to arms again?
she bleeds urgent pleads
from the celestial skies down cast angel eyes witness her heart loins arms surrendered confined by wires borders and fences
sacred promises from her lips
twisted violated printed on marching scripts
her self lost to the inferno of the times
where, my brothers
mother forlorn freedom she calls
from the new agent orange deluge
her deathbed does not have to be the truth

around my ribs

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sweet moon let me cry
it’s not good for me to hide
bury stifle or choke down
let me feel the warmth of
tears sliding down my face
as i imagine they are a gentle caress instead
let me breath through the tautness
lumped throat pitted stomach
sweet moon let me weep
wrap my arms around my ribs
and pretend that i’m not repulsive
let me sob become numb
i’ve got to smile by dawn
in a world that’s reckless
moon don’t be bitter
let me cry for my sake
it’s just like breathing
until the ringing in my ears
releases the poison from my heart
so that the mind finds rationale
as to why again i am not worthy

four haikus

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randomly it comes
a sting then pain it bullies
a feeble defense

lone limitation
it repels the light farther
motivation gone

the truth painful soothe
never were the opiates
the root of it   you

i exist in fear
my broad smile code for deep pain
most pills do not work

storm almost over
my shelter has not been found
no sales are final

the day chuck norris died

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the day chuck norris died
there was traffic and the gas was high
earlier i heard of another Cesare falling
down past the great womb he called ‘wetback’
a victim of peer pressure i suppose
yet for whatever its worth i remain an American girl
the day chuck norris died i told her
‘i bet he karate chopped the reaper all the way through’ she too just another American girl laughed and told me a joke her son had said knowing that as the big events of the world unfurled was not out of the stage jungle yet
the day chuck norris died i went to work climbed a hill unlocked doors used credit cards such as a good American girl should
and now as i remember chuck norris my television set indicates we are still at war with Iran but what say you Cuba ‘bonco you better watch out’
the day chuck norris died i took aspirin fed wild animals laundered and fantasized about guzzling rye and not ever go back like thelma and louise American girl renegades indeed but yet there is another tiny nick that burns and scratches because chuck norris died