i thought i saw a light in the blizzard

i thought i had walked up to it

i thought it let me in

i thought it was warm

i thought it took my pain

i thought it made me happy

i thought it wanted me

the way i thought i wanted it

i now know i was blind in the storm

i now know i was crippled too

i now know i had been standing outside

where the cold held me down

i now know the liquids in my veins

and how i had cried

and even though i cant want it any longer

it will still never want me