tempest in your name
wild love ripples through my soul
tease me rowdy wind
tempest in your name
wild love ripples through my soul
tease me rowdy wind
i must’ve needed the pain you gave me
it started like a dream knowing always
that it wasn’t meant to be because of odds
i was so very screwed in the head
my compass smashed by consequential hammers of life
you were what i needed then
but you came not to me without your complications
we didn’t make love
i don’t even think i know what that is today
it’s not been explained in anything i ever read
least of all not there when you’d touched me
we fucked like animals and it was explosively good
and i’m not ashamed i have no regrets and i’d do it again
you cautious i free
all of which was good and partly wholesome
after my fifth reincarnation
i can now admit i was looking to die
you were the perfect trigger
cruel mean handsome strong smart older
and so very wrong for me
i the perfect foil
in the hunt that men love
gullible vulnerable presentable stupid educated young
i have aged since then yet i haven’t grown
i’m a perpetual socially functioning adult
with the soul of the song of the lone barn owl
in the dead of a rainy frosty northern night
as the minutes pass every now and again
they stab me slash me and run away laughing
with the memories of your bristly mouth
alternately between my lips and my breasts
my neck and my legs
your rough skinned hands clasping my wrists
to keep me from jumping
your honey yellow eyes who wept
with me at our miscarriage
and your graying temples
where the kind lies of indiscretions were confined
if i still smoked i’d light up
after some of the dreams i’ve had of you
i miss our chemistry animalistic
sloppy sleepless rough bitter
with the right amount of intensity and ambrosia
i miss your manly scent woodsy of earth like Adam
the reverberation of your voice
on my navel
scorched concrete broken bottles
bus fare not enough rain comes
huddle in the mass of 300 cots cries for help
a man is lost behind himself he now sees
in front of him are wading genteel lakes
his hands metaphorically cut off at the wrist
closing his eyes he dreams of hills
opening them again he seeks to seal a reality
that comes in colors mainly blues and blacks
his mind aloof with a potion of castles in a foreign land
where the weather is gentle and his feet kiss the sand
in the banks of a river holding the dusking sky
number 48 is called to sit at the chair
we don’t have room for you try back next week
he looks down and looks up again
out of the building to sidewalks of pain
three blocks from Wall street
the birds start to sing the river is placid
the hills are rolling skies are all yawning
the fire she roars inside of the castle a new king explores
omnipotent dawn shawled in gray and pink delicately kisses her on her scarred forehead as it rests against the bus bench advertising the most prestigious real estate agent in town while seven nylon bags each with a logo from a market or a high end store warehouse her last prized belongings one ragged blue Nike sneaker and paper cups filled with grime a broken clock and red wires
militant she is in body in mind she could be anywhere beyond the stars when she smiles the image in her eyes reveal the fires from hell in a most delicate green other times she sings in laughter and waves hello across the sky to the graces never seen by human eyes the locals with finery of wear wonder why she’s there and crown her as a public nuisance not meant to be part of this community there is just too much of a great divide between her prophecy and their brittle decaying reality
look the lawmen arrive she’s more despised and made to carry her belongings down Dolores St. and then the dusk with iron claw he comes and she can’t run away from the hand of fair and righteous rule the goodly people have unanimously decided through tax forms and priority that she must go away the jury wash their hands for the people have spoken and so she takes her fate with a tired brave face not understanding the hate or what she did and where it got her
for three days she’s placed on a hold prodded with instruments of scorn and judgment pleading for her thirst to be mollified she’s forced to take bitter pills as the keepers of the places gamble on her kismet now she’s subdued her gown is sheared down to her contorted waist lacerated feet and hands are tied to the bed of loveless nails for the sake of the most upstanding people’s protection system
the way i fall in love
is complicated in its simplicity
love my insides
my outsides are just temporary
my heart and my soul is where it’s at
the warmth of a hand the kiss of a feather
the ride of comet flying through Mars
the thought of a blessing
but you can’t be a coward
if i fall into madness
the turbulence rough
the motivation sunken
in dark hole obsession
you have to sink with me
and hold on to me tight
my spirit will guide us
don’t turn off my light
of course i love diamonds
and rubies and gold
when you gift them to me
so i can feed the ailing
the old and defenseless
flowers are lovely
and i adore all their essence
but to turn me on
shower the assholes the finks
and the bastards with words of
kindness wisdom and laughter
and if i fight don’t come to my rescue
but i won’t begrudge you if you
leave me to rescue an innocent life
human or animal it doesn’t matter
and if you know MacBeth that’s even better
and you mustn’t be angry when i share
my space with Johnny and Dee Dee and Joey and Marky
one last thing you gotta be a great kisser
the fevers come alternately between the shivering cold silver icicles from the north in my heart and the crickets in stereo is all i hear on Thursdays at the meet this isn’t working i’m not working you’re not working when you’re passed out more than me i am screaming so dimly silently as to not disturb the expectations of those who haven’t lived haven’t hurt haven’t lost haven’t murdered their own soul as the blue gray spirit holds the last of the plasma in her hands weeping into the air of having felt good and bad together like when the gods cum and the fucking rock bottom has three secret layers underneath the circle with a broken line cannot protect me do you not see what i see it is beauty in the knife wound of his side that costs too much to stitch and Bacardi left a while ago and your horse faced phantom takes too long to boil i can’t wait 1 second it’s too long to feel too much the melodrama of my delusion you don’t deserve mouth to mouth but ask me as the ambulance struts by not our call tonight tomorrow neither
words sacred
the world
commits fratricide
for and
over you
since the
Breath released
the first
prokaryote upon
Tierra’s face
to serve
as a
guide and
as a
fate to
one and
all souls
you and
i are
one in
kind my
dearest treasure
hi
Rabbi
i’m that girl
this Eden is
very beautiful
i’ve crawled on my belly
since the time of the Pharaohs
and i’m feeling deeply tired
today i make the case that gifting
me free will does not compare to heaven
when i close my eyes the cries of Mary
still echo in my ears while Martha’s
brother slumbers wrapped in linens
and the taste of chocolate
melting joy on my tongue
careless angels send
Your blessed signs
however
i am
done
willingly i sink in your hands im tired peace flood over me
chaos in our blood
sunrise joins our hungry mouths
zen entwines our flesh