The repulsiveness
will pass
and all
will be diplomatic.
though the
heart might desire
with a
Samsonian strength,
the mind’s Delilahian
command
disallows.
i smell the
base notes of April
cold and unreasonable
on the gray
sidewalk
smeared
with shit.
the shoe
leather of the
Langer’s
years no longer
remands my
weight. the thoughts
have become
too stained and heavy
with the
ugliness of fate.
no longer
is it important
how the
words fall out
and in what
succession they may
land. all
that matters is that
you are
well and undisturbed
locked in
your thoughts
and
creature comforts.
the birds
will fly and filth
will drift.
we will wake up
and toil.
spit at the gods and idols.
Strauss
will play and cigars will emit
perfumed
relic. i wear my pants in
constant
grief, i drink the beer,
i take your
quiz.
as you smile
and walk away
my blood
will crawl and
die
someday; only as long
as i let
you.