i
am a
spec inside
fallopian
tubes tied in silence
wandering in sepsis
with no nebula to birth
me in and mold me to be free
wicked cold frozen fire line my
eyes to shut down at dawn’s reverse rising
you my twin enigma engine super
star in brilliant tigress opus
the moon intends to strike upon
weak hands that try to hide her
floating spec dance away
into dead eyed shore
narrow pathway
stray comet
bone star
still
me
staring
silently
at sun flowers
floating in their pot
enjoying golden warmth
while birds chirp a symphony
the heavy heart looking at them
wondering where time went yesterday
my eyes know that i too will wither soon
breath
silent
sweet whisper
cooed inside dreams
honey veins the sting
it comes on spurts of hot
metal polish in the blood
wolfram exploding in the night
thinly necked liquid sand holy grail
near blue Nirvana send me off to sleep
night
sleep is
hard to come
by outside the
dark it lingers on
shadows congregate near
the window as the whisper
of the dead scarecrows no longer
keep the fear of the shivering child
whose recited all her prayers at bay
hold
your breath
easy now
that’s good like that
i like it when you
tense up and move wildly
oh see there the moon blushes
together let’s hold the dam back
slow down some don’t give in too quickly
in a few moments the lightning will strike
lost
today
open sun
smiles a plenty
the kids all playing
innocence not taken
i breathe in the warm feeling
the ducks come near me for some bread
sweet genuine brown eyes smile at me
what does one do when you have won the war
launch
painful
fists at me
i don’t care that
it leaves a blue mark
i’ll just put ice on it
besides skin gets tougher with
time and i’ve got lots of it to
have patience and learn from your mistakes
take it out on me whip the love i have
for you into hell i won’t need it much
just don’t tell me that i’m useless rot
your tongue has a way of killing
a wide eyed love i have for
myself and the Spirit
and it will only
cause my will to
chase demons
in the
dark
heart
under
your beating
laughing rhythm
burns the fire of
joy like no other at
watching the delft blue beyond
spread away in grandeur pageant
so the lady of the golden light
may dance for the ushers of Nirvana
hi
Rabbi
i’m that girl
this Eden is
very beautiful
i’ve crawled on my belly
since the time of the Pharaohs
and i’m feeling deeply tired
today i make the case that gifting
me free will does not compare to heaven
when i close my eyes the cries of Mary
still echo in my ears while Martha’s
brother slumbers wrapped in linens
and the taste of chocolate
melting joy on my tongue
careless angels send
Your blessed signs
however
i am
done
trees
naked
and white far
away castles
in the platinum
forest painted silver
then the city bus belches
toxic filth into my lungs that
plead wildly and gasp for mercy then
catching my breath and thank the stars i’m home
words less spoken 