time

the beauty of it all

lies in her infinity
born into a simple and unlimited existence

the diamonds in her eyes are as gods to me

so small a creature am i.
she offers the bounty of allness

and the sacredness of truth
but my arms are only capable of meager embrace

flanked on all sides by my humble humanity.

Civil War

time travels fast when i need her more
and she, the infinite sadist

moves slow when i need the pain to go
the shapes of the universe linger
slightly to the west affording neither light  -nor shade-
the children offspring bastards
of antiquity cradled in a grave
and clouds of hated Gods are formed to see who can wave
their cloth the highest

phi

fire

powder

soot blind

in city smog

machines west bound fast pace

in a slow sacrificial lane to an edge

where do my brothers stand and do my sisters still weep for 

what?

i an old child raised on Hollywood schemes TV land and reruns

nursed on bitter milk of a fork tongued script

raised by bumper sticker testament as the spirit and the law

mingles between tithes and taxes Lord and Caesar bedfellows

of the host parking meter temples DMV vaticans bus bench

prayer ritual before dawn

re-issue of pedigree from the DSMV bible while marked on the

tender restless soul with the selective serotonin reuptake

inhibitor sigil       

where do my sisters run and do my brothers still see what  

for?

runway to the sunset where the wind rests

wings are made of gold

thoughts fly away

flicking grace

silent

ratios

in the pink i cant remember

fingers tinker on the boards

found objects on the floors

colors colors on your doors

in the pink i cant remember

chambers darker than one soul

running running out a door

pick me up and throw me down

the problem is my answer

prayers broken words of thoughts

the spider web whispers crawl

away i am so wounded

i create resistance by

demanding my compliance

in the pink i cant remember

all of my innocence

in the pink i cant remember

the shapes the songs the air

floating through in

Cadillacs

Yellow submarines and

Superman

in the pink i cant remember

voices ghosts and anamnesis

amongst the dying trees

of winters past

in the pink i cant remember

east Psalm

beloved Father
all i’ve known
and You are still
and shut to me

the west claims
me through my
sickened blood and
terms so foreign

i long for You
to open wide and
take me from
this abstract place

so autumn now is
here again and those
who’ve gone i can’t
replace; they were never here

Father of the east
call to me and claim
me as i am with
sullied heart

the broken bones
of battles lost
and smiles tainted
with grief

oh Holy One
in lone direction
let the Kingdom
come at last to me

Berakah to Broadway

my favorite hour is at 3:07 a.m. your ramblers are spent.  the streets are hot with discontent and happiness. your building walls are tired. there is hope and despair. the lights flicker off and off and sometimes on. dear Broadway i love you so. i want to drop dead on your asphalt and sink in forever.  your silent strength feeding and nourishing all staggers of life. days are lived fast upon you. the letters, the pictures, the breaths, the gasps; cultivator of all that. your façade oozing with corporate swag, but your soul, your spirit profound, pure, wild and capricious, like a beautiful woman. i want to roll in your soot, trip on your cracks and see your ghosts who lived in you and of you, my beloved Broadway. speak easy of my dreams, mistress keeper of my veins in your dark little alleys. i love you so  Broadway. i want you all to myself, no man, woman or creature can have you. you are my mother, when no one is willing to be. you are my father when all are too cowardly. you gave me karate movies, 8-tracks and joy. you gave me advice, caution and wisdom. you are my mistress, chancellor of my education and intuitions. you are my eyes into the past that lingers in my most penultimate remembrances as a child falling down by your fire hydrant. to you, who has always been the only one who understands my twistedness and carcinomatous fevers, i write to you fair goddess, keeper of myself. i love you so my beloved Broadway. thank you for keeping me in your implorations.

wound

the layers disappear

on the pavement

of her soul

seconds go by and precious

life spills on leaving

opportunities and choices

there is little time in each quandary

before the bell rings and the

arrow picks a destination

sweet and bitter most of

all

through the soil

are the roots

and as they reach

the point of end

the layers are

healed

but she is not the same