to just be alone
in my room
quiet
to just remember if
i have felt
loved
but just alone was
irrefutable proof that
i
had never been like
i was told
always
yet like a fool
i wept stained
silence

to just be alone
in my room
quiet
to just remember if
i have felt
loved
but just alone was
irrefutable proof that
i
had never been like
i was told
always
yet like a fool
i wept stained
silence

eyes
quiet
thoughts
are
thunder
heart
so
tender
strong
super
nova
star

so very lucky to have the Pope of Punk R. Banks put sound to the word with me
there’s five green apples golden freckles on their skin
heater on cozy my hands icy
coffee molasses ice sugar cubes
glass tinted Armenian style
chest gentle heave breasts not in confinement
feet bare electric black polish on crooked toes from walking too early
eyes looking particularly nowhere
thinking about wishing to feel like a Michael Stipe song
standing fingertips wipe eyes from tears
Nina Simone where are you
ashtray heavy crystal lead a junk store whimsy buy
looking south outside the window
buildings tall short stout
like the teapot in that song
this linoleum floor where feet are flat
i witness her smog pink shanks
good morning Los Angeles

night-time the city groans the street she’s made of skin and bones metaphorical of course the trashcan luminaries glow come closer girl witness the yellow flames doing the mambo
the eye fixates on chewing gum chips greens reds blues and whites tanned by side walk bacteria to look like leather lockets
a lonely saxophone sticks out at 7th he sways low and high traffic its ventriloquist serious things do cross my mind not just my trivial troubles
electric gadget old time store shows moving pictures all day long but i think the state the state don’t own my color divisions revisions im fed 24/7 of multimillion dollar fist and knee hustling heroes of the people
the moon flipping me off the feet trudge through the tunnel’s mouth a dollar here a water box there three cups of coffee a Jesus pamphlet a drug lord stare the woman bleeding a call for help an argument here a stare down there and the toothless guys use purple flags to wipe their asses
the state the state you don’t own my color my truth is mine and we the we don’t really clash the state don’t own their color either
i earn my bread i pay my share to keep the oval circus going but so do they of every hue and be aware that shadiness comes in every tone from every corner of the globe machine don’t use those kids as fodder
i want to be who i was born to let the children go so state the state i feel your scorn but fuck you you’ll never own my color if polished sand ceilings or jealous sisters end my ascendance here at least i’ll die knowing i fought my way with opened eyes and steady brush to take the hands of everyone and paint the tinge of human love inside me


hearts hands soft torments
tonight creation pains near
he will sit and wait
my face here always
when i love i love blindly
heart used against me
welcome back tonight you sad and pale wolf moon
i thought we were through
pacing and sinking i wrestled you out
only to find you in my heart
why do you come wolf moon unmovable fool
you are a life sentence
when i got born you were there to receive me
when peace took a powder
both faces of the clock urge me to tell you
welcome back tonight you sad and pale wolf moon
will you stop my doubt
i’ll keep pushing you outside
let me lie alone by this brook of dwindling despair
Billie with her lamenting mouth around midnight noon
“I’ve got those Monday blues
Straight through Sunday blues”
welcome back tonight you sad and pale wolf moon
sitting on rooftops you toast your light
on my wild girl hair
with my fingers cramped pull up a comet
lay your silver fire on me
don’t hide away after our tasting
who fell into whose clutches
welcome back tonight you sad and pale wolf moon