





hot the concrete is today
plastic black orchid near the front step
of the Gothic house but only in her head
3:30 a.m. writing session to her congressman
about her old folks home going to the dogs
when at breakfast her and her friends call the nurse speed racer
and lament not having money
and love least of all
Banksy art work on the wall across the street they see
the wind runs his fingers through her thinning hair
after stroke and misery took out her common sense
her doctor dresses in jeans and looks like young Lou Reed
she silently riots at the lies that she is told
and falls into depression dreaming of Marilyn Monroe
the shade of the magnolia tree pokes its trunk on through
and gives Elizabeth another day away from sudden death
always is she thankful in her widowed lonely heart
far away from Montana and the nest home of the Crow
green eggs and ham was never read to her
while empty beer bottles at the end of a long day
forced to collect with laughter at the inn
voluntary ignorance all to chase a dream
Hollywood sign was the destination but opened doors are never guaranteed
hey letter X
you’re my favorite
i relate with your
closed off heart center
but four very open ended arms
i too have closed in
and have for many years
but the more the heart shut
i kinda became vulnerable to
the dark underbelly of too much
awareness of things best left alone
some might say through this traveled winding tar soaked road that i’ve acquired more X’s than the Pussy Cat Theatre
i guess it’s the best to have open options not to get boxed in but at times in the midnight hourglass of time
the thought Xes my head that we both have four paths and our keys to the maps are rusted shut deep in our centers
the songs that birds sing sweet and piercing in my heart
lay me to rest in some other part
of Your universe so dark
where the songs that birds sing
sweet and piercing like Your voice
lay me to rest in Your universe
with those songs that birds sing
i too will be free soul pure
sweet and piercing songbird
resting in Your universe at last
silence
wet grass
white skies north
sun
hides behind
giggling watches me
scratching
my bean
looking at flowers
signs
blink silently
breakfast served here
air
breathing again
stops to chat
birds
sing replies
air and birds
me
crosswalk speaks
time to change
look
the wealth
staring at me
life
another day
granted to me
granite vinyl floor
false wood boxes
mac and cheese coffee tins
purple bran cereal bowls
window facing south
just the five freeway
somewhere on the fridge
the phone buzzes Van
shimmies face to face
with those wild nights
cat food plate just a few
orange crumbs left
of the meal she ate
water boiling rolling steam
tea leaves lemon and green
zen light amongst the top of tree
tail wound around her paws
a few splintered thoughts
snug between my head
two souls listening
as the city birds chirp
for her and me
four in the morning
we sip smokey espressos
Joe Strummer and me

dew drops shape
coffee slowly drips
from the hallway foot steps fall
Cortana plays old time country tunes
the gray cat her ocean green eyes watch me write words that will remain unspoken
it has been there since David’s death truth mercifully laid out
just and only human not chosen by anyone
born of lust that’s it nothing more than that
you’re lying to yourself aren’t you tired
no ornament jewel pedigree or endorsement can change that
if anything extraordinarily unimportant is what you are
get it through your head the fact is not out there it’s in front of your face
smile why don’t you talk in pretty words give the bestest blow jobs to him to him you are just a convenient commodity
with willing open legs spare me those perfectly rolled tears as you hope that someday he’ll take your hand instead
dull minded old girl your will is not your own buck up
it starts with one step then two and so forth out from the world into your house where your will waits for you to open your heart
and for once let it swallow you whole