why we dream so distantly where the planets question who we are
black holes surrender in perplex look at each other in their deep blue eye
and say forget them
could be that in Tennessee my heart i left there beating
nature are you a conscience forcing me to look at the destruction of the muffler in my car
this morning she a strange lady clutched me in a surrender of half breed slumber
children screaming for their cereal and when i come to they were asking for some pop
mind twisted and turned out inwardly
heart full of bewilderment
spirit dull cracked in some areas
soul as is no refunds
aware that privilege was not a commodity
we all have our crosses to bear and walls to wail upon
boundless and untethered loyalty to any attention giver
and then the sons of Adam distraught
ended a course of life
at that moment of death and rebirth
spirit began to take shape
the eyes opened the lung breathed
the palm uncurled and the mind sobered
the heart beat lips parted in silence
what do i believe
we are still here the force the pulse
the breath of God
in spite of my will or yours
we are here the ancient brick and mortar
passed through the stream of our common blood
flows in rivers of love cleaning the puddles of blood
tears we have all shed across this world
i guess i have to go now
it was a pleasure meeting you if
only through letters and gigabytes
warm eyes warm smile and so much gratitude
i would have been honored to call you mother
Poetess you were a friend in spirit
you go join your loved ones and rest
write along the angels can you hear
the music of the celestial orbs
when i close my eyes shut tight
on a high rise rooftop in the fancy
part of my city i can hear it
and i dream of holding Shakespeare’s quill
perhaps Helene you can get his autograph for me
and send it on the feather of a swan
i guess i have to go now
and as you soar through the beautiful skies
you will now know all mystery
beautiful artist sweet kind friend
you leave us here where life is sometimes a game
we laugh or we cry but we are just human
be it not for souls full of light like you
who’ve touched my heart
one could say life would be intolerable
those final days before his death were joyous for the both of us vanilla ice cream sundaes jack daniels at night splashing in the water breathing like fishes when your sister turned the cold garden hose on us then a five minute rain fell from the sky a rainbow above the 101 months later i would cry walking the streets of north Hollywood holding the black Kaiser helmet you wore nothing sweet to eat all the drink in the valley useless piss to me why am i still stuck my water was fire your water akin to John’s cleansing river never could i place flowers by your grave and the orange blossoms are falling down origami mornings freedom of the ride spirit of the brave old Jung cut with different scissors but we both bled the same i’m grateful the rainbow was there for you
the road she is cruel and with little respite
but i made it to Your house
with the help of Ruach Elohim
i can raise my knuckles to Your door
and knock to be let in
YWHW this is your daughter
the mother of the boy
who is now in your eternal care
i see his hands and eyes and smile
in the wild flowers waltzing on the ground
i traversed the firmament all this way
for You to look me in the face
and give me a reason
because i’m only Your daughter
and i don’t know anymore
did You give Abraham his bosom
from these stones that hold Your strength
my bosom is torn wide apart
forsaken forgotten and in pain
the glimmer in the joy of light
that showers Your front steps
no longer bring me comfort
YHWH
You and i know what love can be
we both sent our sons
unto the world of man
but only Your’s came back
beloved
first son of little lost girl with a lion heart
can
you see the sky goes on forever like your homeruns
when
you played dusty little knees bat nestled in tiny hands
green
fields and blue skies trees to climb yours now eternally
waking up mouth dry parched soul
death came to warn me
she was a great sullen oak
an oracle to the fallen
angels who peeked out from her
“be good or else child”
in life i had taken more
than i could really handle
words less spoken 