i guess i’ll see you
3 am works for me too
when you get here
climb into bed
shock my soul awake
with your cold hands
gunmetal lips upon my neck
your left knee shucking
my reluctant legs open
we say a few false words
we disagree on stupid things
and we pretend that we are civil
when all we are
when all we have been
are two wild and seething animals
needing to get fucked
to release pain and rejection
and forget the wars that we have fought
why are we so afraid
you even more so than me
why do you come here
what could i possibly offer
that you haven’t already had
from better women
is it my cunning
my tortured soul
my soldier mentality
or my willingness
to be your whore
in your world
i am nothing
you are king
in my world
you still don’t know
i exist and i laugh
at the complexity
of your thoughts
and your offerings
your confusion as to who
i am
let me tell you who i’m not
unlike the others
i will not play a part
you can’t dress me up
change how i breath
what i smoke what i drink
i
will
not
follow you around
send you love letters
or get a manicure
you want your cock sucked
you know i’m game
and like a good little baller
you know how i play
before the tantric show you want
i need to feel your collateral in me
bite me squeeze me hold me down and tease me
i won’t look into your eyes
because that’s when our problems start
the hearts start beating
like they’re one
and then you go and leave me
