i go away tomorrow
will you not love
me three times tonight
i’ll come again to
hold your hand but
we never know our
fate or luck and
if we come to
stay for a few
hours more then what
will change in us
NELA
la cita
es muy temprano
son las cuatro
de la mañana
y las sombras
que caen afuera
hablan cosas de
mi vida y
no puedo respirar
me dicen que
usted dr. azul
es cardiólogo superior
y que me puede
diagnosticar y dar un beso
en las estrellas marinas
y que todo mi sufrimiento
se ahoga en el olvido
de las sirenas vestidas
en oro y plata
doctor cardiólogo
yo hago muchas preguntas
usted no sería el primero
en decir no puedo contestar
lo que necesita saber mujer
en unas horas estaré completamente
azul y gris con pena y el corazón
se desangra porque ya no puede mas
en su opinión cual es mi prognosis
señor doctor del corazón
lo tengo ya muy quebrado
hare mis planes finales
le acepto su beso
y buscare que los ángeles
negros me vengan a llevar
o encontro
é muito cedo
são às quatro
da manhã
e as sombras
que caem do lado de fora
eles falam sobre
minha vida e
não posso respirar
eles me dizem isso
você dr. azul
ele é um cardiologista superior
e o que você pode
diagnosticar e beijar
nas estrelas do mar
e que todo o meu sofrimento
afoga-se no esquecimento
das sereias vestidas
em ouro e prata
médico cardiologista
Eu faço muitas perguntas
você não seria o primeiro
em dizer que não posso responder
o que você precisa conhecer mulher
Dentro de algumas horas estarei completamente
azul e cinza com dor e coração
ele sangra porque ele não aguenta mais
na sua opinião qual é o meu prognóstico
senhor médico do coração
Eu já o tenho quebrado
Vou fazer meus planos finais
Eu aceito seu beijo
e vou procurar anjos
negros vêm para me levar
the appointment
it’s very early
it’s four o’clock
in the morning
and the shadows
that fall outside
they talk about
my life and
i can’t breathe
they tell me that
you dr. blue
are a superior cardiologist
and that you can
diagnose and kiss it away
in the stars by the sea
all of my suffering
drowns in oblivion
witnessed by mermaids dressed
in gold and silver
cardiologist doctor sir
i ask many questions
you would not be the first
in saying i can’t answer
what you need to know woman
in a few hours i will be completely
blue and gray with grief and a heart
that bleeds because it can’t take it anymore
in your opinion what is my prognosis
mr. heart doctor
it’s already broken
i will make my final plans
i’ll accept your kiss
and i will wait for the black angels
who come to take me
haiku for Mark
grey eyes open shirt
i want you tonight lover
luck whistled on by
paging Dr. Burroughs, Dr. Burroughs please…
WS i don’t feel that well tonight
the stars are covered in dust and grime
and the corner store doesn’t have the Windex i like
i’ve listen to Thelonius on Bluetooth
and Ravel’s Bolero till the landlady came
to shut me up it wasn’t even that loud
i struggle Billy Bull Baby i see you
in dreams of course with your suits and balding
beautiful head but your brain really turned me on
i’ve been going back and forth for three days whether i should
go to Daikokuya’s for a ramen bowl but i just don’t have the gumption
i think i’m depressed again the tears run like Jesse Owens and i have no interest in making
them stop
W im in head first in the Interzone of my own doing
for hours i sit on the kitchen counter
looking out for the little brown birds who eat the last
pomegranates of the winter and wonder where the
first half part of my life went but i worry more
that i have no specific certainty where my last half is
going
can you read me a bed time story my favorite is “Green Eggs
and Ham”
work by mbrazfield 2001
indications and usage
its not the lining of the heart or the medulla that is swollen it is pain of the spirit anger at the lot resentment at the lack of fairness and extreme abhorrence of the violence in my orbit of which you know that i know i cant fly its just wishful thinking a survival mechanism from a childhood taken so there is absolutely no need to pathologize my just being human i understand youre just the man with the accreditation and i can get that my other man under the bridges of my nation is working on the fly both bringing me the holy candy to take the edge away of the inevitable lesson of having to turn the other cheek but due to heavy handed legal messes summoned by the maternal book of ancient testament coming in direct conflict with the law of teeth for teeth coupled with Eve and Adam’s eye disease i bear the mark of all mankind and gift of favorite sons free will is not for you to harvest in the laboratories of supply at no discount price for first time users
first grade interpretation of the Old West
pausing by the pond 7 feet away from the peach trees left there by the chuck wagons of 1881 and the gingham bonnets stain upon the rocks placed there to dry in my western sun the Borox box is empty ma’ as the echoes of blond pigtails before the dawn of braces and Barbie dolls flowers dressed in yellow chipmunks draw a crowd and daddy presses on upon the kneeling giant mountains picking day and night sapping land from its sickled blood doing what men do but today my toothless grin will lend itself to draw a sigh from spirits past 1855 in the cavern of the snake
Queen Phoebe Anne
poem one
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foreword
this haiku is not
about pretty flowers or
skies of blue and love
this second one is
to notify you that i
don’t write tenderly
hate me or like me
this is who i am just know
that you’re in my heart
Toviscangna
sun
stroking
my back
train is coming
across the tracks slowly
the songs of birds echoed
as i fell seven feet deep across the
mountain where the red tail hawk she greeted me with a gown of platinum jade and jasper and in her sigh
a woman mounted on Pegasus came to bless me she said to me the kingdom came and here we have the honorable nine dancing maidens whose Queendom we will share with you our guest
i raised my arms in disbelief and asked to be transported to the Southwest Museum where i was going the hawk she swooped and lifted me to show me the holy fields of rapture
we can arrange to take you back said the little maiden with tail of gold but we ask for a favor
you and your clan we hope respect the
remains of our sacred ancestors
i nodded yes and
in a flash
woke up
in
Toviscangna
routine
your lip moves a little
eye lids wild sleep takes you
i imagine i kiss you and i ever so lightly
touch your arm hold your calloused hand your scent invades me as i yearn to be taken
yet in your waking hours you revoke permission of my eyes
landing on you
i could watch for ever your gray eyes trap me
you laugh at me my smile drops in
as i feign glee outwardly the flower i brought you
has wilted away then i sang you my love on bloody knee
you stood over me and shook your head
