insomnia hello
i see you brought thoughts to me
gush into the head
fear primordial
followed me from Eden’s cast
with children untamed
the screaming screens light
canopy of lies oozing
sullying frail life
as you turn away
subtle twilight engulfs me
rebirth awaits there
You higher power
Holy Ghost
Dove of Peace
Lord of Abraham
i have always loved You
not in a temple home
or candles steeples crowns of thorns
i’ve loved You through his venomous smile
the flowers on the bush deathly sour
the raindrops of my heart
through the ruffian storm of my disease
the nails that bind me to this salt
that seasons human behavior
gawking at birds pinned in the drowsy sky
dots of tenuous freedom
i’ve loved You through his lips of lies
midnight dips
of hazed oblivion
through my veins i thought of You
hollering the choked mangled Hallelujahs
i have always loved You
on beds of death
i’ve laid my head to fester
my lips quivered caving inward
the name of the unobtainable Highest
cardboard hallowed sidewalk snares
i’ve loved You
fearful through the steps i took
where the dusk of the living sighs
precious shards of angel tears
above the Staples Center skyline
a helicopter or two
green heavy military
did you see the angels’ lace
made of colors not yet named
on the ground concrete pillows
bricks pipes crossing lines
multiplying multitudes
faces looking up
to wonder
how the rainbow got it’s high
its virtue and its glow
xray visions time flows through
yet we don’t know
we are the spectrum of it all
engine speaks in tongues at times
pulls into the soul
stops dusty clotted roads
the time to move was now
like a parade
on protest days
green mile flowers
line the way
sun kisses face alone
under hood hoses roar
radio delivers telegrams
from simpler times
and long ago
trails like waiting mothers
daughter shacks lined down
their shack feet shoed with poppies
ruby slippers anti-Hollywood style
ghost maidens sell red berries
for crows atop the Joshua trees
for me to feed
can’t stand tall
only in awe
dream catch spider web
crystals for tiny arachnid queens
their king hides under the rocks
wind fingers my aging hair
cowlicks everywhere
magnetism from Her core
presses on my mouth
and leaves a score
locked in me
are secrets stored
warriors express on Her behalf
not because they deem Her less
but because She is too sacred
for this place where i come from
blizzard
of
thoughts
tapeworm
of
my
soul
what
now
take
steps
the
cave
awaits
shame
like a flower
blush
bleed the rain
silence
hums the snow
thrust
against complacent waves
dusk
winter grows tired
morning
falls like silk
tired
rest now still
when i was a child
the God’s words confused me
as it was in the beginning
so shall it be in the end
Marley’s wailers also wailed
yet it still made no sense
when i was a girl
i studied about war in the local school textbook
but saw that both famous Abrahams modes of being sat naked on the dirty modern streets no bosom to hold tight to
no log cabin to sleep in
and Mary virgin mother became an entrepreneur in bottled holy wine and bloody linen sheets
just like any old biker momma i would come to meet
when i ran away just before the legal untender age
i devoted my life to Saint N Cassady
acid tests numbed out tongues
hugging my chest to my knees
i just one spec of ash
from the forest of the streetlamps
where we all burned
from creationists angry balls
middle road i step the curb
beginning never esoteric
ending at my mother’s vault
whispering sitting on the retainer wall
perhaps in this universe
i’ve lived it all simultaneously
since the gases of The Breath began to stir laying star mosaic highway to my Earth i have stood here with the Mothers see our skin with every deep trench within lies a simple truth no matter how those eyes may look at it those evergreens beyond man’s streets will make their way to find me i the omnipotent Mother armored in degrees of time so tempered holding on to blades of grass and crooning birds the smiles of ghosts prophets who are strangers and now it is my time the holy Breath she comes on flames attire placing the finishing touches before i’m ushered softly silently diligently into a tomb of slumber
