hot lava numbness
sifting sins of our fathers
ain’t got coins to pay
hot lava numbness
sifting sins of our fathers
ain’t got coins to pay
swirling lava holy water
smoke eyes turn off
don’t look down up
or to the sides
don’t look in the heart
or speak to the breeze
hear for beats of far off drum
they’re marching inching to the end
maybe for the best
drips drops of pain
pictures of her
inside of him
innocent perhaps
but i’ll never know the truth
so yesterday was i
but understood
i promise you
the wider my smile
the stronger the pain
of where i think i see this going
edged cliff here i go
nothing quickly chasing me

dragonfly
blue
green
car
windshield
smog
begging
man
time
passed
through
wire
You higher power
Holy Ghost
Dove of Peace
Lord of Abraham
i have always loved You
not in a temple home
or candles steeples crowns of thorns
i’ve loved You through his venomous smile
the flowers on the bush deathly sour
the raindrops of my heart
through the ruffian storm of my disease
the nails that bind me to this salt
that seasons human behavior
gawking at birds pinned in the drowsy sky
dots of tenuous freedom
i’ve loved You through his lips of lies
midnight dips
of hazed oblivion
through my veins i thought of You
hollering the choked mangled Hallelujahs
i have always loved You
on beds of death
i’ve laid my head to fester
my lips quivered caving inward
the name of the unobtainable Highest
cardboard hallowed sidewalk snares
i’ve loved You
fearful through the steps i took
where the dusk of the living sighs
a tight jawed loon that’s what i’ll be
silently i will slink
behind the dying ugly trees
they die like a Shakespearean villain
across from the dirty river
their dusty peeling trunks
looking like they wear shoes
but its only beige mushroom caps
growing from an addict’s turd
ant trail metropolis up and down
the droopy branches bound by old cassette tape ribbon
the sugar burdens on their little thorax
weighing just as much
as the burdens on my curved shoulders
obscure illusions and esoteric lies
the native boulders akin to WCF’s face
emblazoned with red stripes and nonsense
the names of petty thief street artists
stretching down from the lived in hill
where crows go to bury their dead
dime sized nettles in my unkempt hair
will tangle with the strands in silence
and with a little time
the thorns of broken thoughts ruptured memories
will burrow even deeper
like wet mud i step into it
but quiet i will be
be silent the people have spoke
a stone chorus in space
i hear them on cold nights
they are getting colder by the way
i’ll glance beyond the conniving lights
alone out of the way and in silence
precious shards of angel tears
above the Staples Center skyline
a helicopter or two
green heavy military
did you see the angels’ lace
made of colors not yet named
on the ground concrete pillows
bricks pipes crossing lines
multiplying multitudes
faces looking up
to wonder
how the rainbow got it’s high
its virtue and its glow
xray visions time flows through
yet we don’t know
we are the spectrum of it all
Baker Beach fog cold wet knees
sand deep cut wrists
knuckles bleed
cold sea wind seeps
into the cracks of the spirit
was around the time
we broke our peace
seagulls screeched wildly
above our coal black energy
you the pulling south
i the fleeting north
umbilical cord
severed forever
Artemis took this orphan in
taught me how to hunt
other creatures
such as i
for crazy cannibalistic 32182314155 rites
and wandering in every downtown desert
dawns spent in tunnels bent
from the neck down
every now and again
the birds would sound
toasting to paired up
cooing doves
that have flown away from me
January
cold restless
eyes opened
limbs clasped tight into the womb of the donated forest green love seat
two suns and one absent moon ago
there you were in faded cotton gown
bleach rough by the sanitation bound
gasping and heaving
not too different
to the cooing sounds
of city pigeons
i never thought that you would go
as i expected that you were fighting
now
so much time has rushed on
and late tonight
while i write this for you
i wonder
were you crossing the Styx
neck deep
tell me
does that river ebb and flow
like your spirit and your soul
is the current soft
do the little waves embrace your ankles
like precious jewels
time split the light in two
we both took in your make up bag
i the incorrigible one
mumbled unsanctified Kaddish
not finding the words
no matter
YHWH had cupped
broken and trite utterances
from my mouth
