the sun is out she wears orange
freckles are her spots that cause chaos
upon the lines in the sand yesterday
the avocado trees gave without regret green
they were now the willows hang there
i just another organism single celled alone
yes the grass blades dewey with blood
from shedding flower cannibals deep among clouds
then the bus explodes its breaks the chosen
ones get off weighed down by sad
moons broken heart he a stoic far
beyond the grasp of the Neptune comic
Depression
ulcer

acid rain drop tear
eye field of grain
gypsy cloth for burial
standing we don’t stop
just beyond the starline
shelter roof of water
floor of heaven hell
grew cold of waiting
ulcer in the chiding
mouth of goddess in
between the deaths of
lives less killed our
candied bitterness let’s build
a temple maybe five
before the swallows fly
back stoned to nests
tipping over ashes was
the flowers of my
bed in hair graying
grady’s psalm too point oh
wet sand stink in my nose
thoughts of another month gone
but funny thing
im walking on my city street
Master Reeves literature check
big ass cup of iced Americano check
sun shining on my head check
to the left of my short shank
a begging tent with liquor spills
to the right of my short shank
my jean ripped on a baby palm tree
traffic below the Wilshire boulevard bridge
connecting insanity and greed
sometimes an old woman will shake her fist
at the medical marijuana rig
going at a breakneck slow speed
at the corner the fruit vendor speaks
to his regulars about the Trump defeat
but i squeeze by avoiding getting sucked in
to consequences of a life so alien to me
well i’ve never been to Pensicola or
Miami FLA im from Californayay
my lips pucker out a lame refrain
then i wonder about Bettie Page
her life as a saint
it gets late
sky hued like wild honey
littered is my view
with COVID warnings
i reach to pick at the mask round my neck
in respect for a millennial child
with each crispy step to my place
traces of hurled up chow mein
discarded condom wraps
and leaflets notifying me Jesus saves
neon sign haiku
why the blue in you
when your starlight shines like gold
where have you gone sky
loneliness
looking up i see
nothing but bricks and metal
angels tip toe here
clouds in my eyes poof
under the hardened street light
hungover kisser

gourmet
car titty and payday organs i thought i heard myself think under the bridge with the tents mushroomed through it dry cheap malt liquor atomizer scent the Nordstroms lobby of the poor crosswalk to the weed supplier across the street the line begins on 18th opposite the Toyota parts dealer scooter boys and eyelash girls the latest in street fashion Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle dolls Scooby Doo blankets fixed on car windows for privacy from the bleeding hearts and muskers with their guns ready for the crop shadows greased upon the pavement from the Great Depression and the miscellaneous gruel penny coffee who knew multibillion dollar hook to look good and begging cups with a winking siren who can’t scream at the scandal of it all starvation degradation insinuation of a world gone sane cardboard living is very thrilling for those who afford expensive drywall hung by the nephews of Cuauhtemoc before the Spaniards took the gold that now sits in microwaves next to Nancy’s expensive chest filled with 38 exuberant flavors

death according to bird

i alone live with this reflection
the nature in the God and i a mere feather
look around nowhere to bury my exhaustion
i see beyond the bones of time
a hall of mirrors is the water
my wings held hostage by its weight
i carry souls both day and night
whose reflection no longer stares in awe
of the terror underneath our feet
testing the waters
if i could rest like lady lights prints atop the final resting bed i would be happy
my steps heavy like clouds and my dreams would not perturb me
my heart would sparkle like a star upon your God blue colored eyes
and my final kiss would caress your lips
my fingertips testing the waters

apostate’s haiku
not all spirits were meant to be part of an entourage my hand says

eating my words [xii]
