mad house

in a mad house i shoo my heart away

i don’t know why      i stay

in the hope that you will feel

or think in your head to

need me

the yellow of the walls

suffocates me; I get held

down against my will

but it is not yellow

it is           dimness and fear

i see a tender brook out

of my third eye window

and the idea that i could

be free                  is unsettling

for letting you go

means being without

in my head i look into

my eyes and i see empty

inky dread         such a quick sand terror

in the night where did you go

from me

                        madness at all hours

stuns me; soothes me; makes me weep

cruelty beyond           all naturalness

of human spirit

the cell is silent              

the day is        come

the brook is                 muddy

mi naturaleza

llego

el

tiempo de

verme como soy

un humano de hueso estelar

caminando por los caminos indebidos con pasos tímidos

hasta el templo de la antigüedad donde todos los secretos mueren en silencio

y en la lucha yo contra yo no entiendo mi naturaleza deseo volar con halas de ángel pero solo soy hombre

y en la decisión de amar o odiar me tropiezo y con furia levanto mis manos para el rostro de la santidad golpear con puños destructivos que no me llevan al cielo más alto

no me sirven los pies para llegar al lugar bendito y mis pensamientos navego a lugares fríos donde no hay luz

este día suplico tener permiso de entrar a la casa de mis madres

y que mi espíritu sea nutrido por sus

consejos medicinales donde ya no

sufra mi alma

y descanse

en

paz


minha natureza

chego

o

tempo de

veja-me como eu sou

um humano de osso estelar

andando nas estradas erradas com passos tímidos

para o templo da antiguidade, onde todos os segredos morrem em silêncio

e na luta eu contra mim mesmo eu não entendo minha natureza Eu quero voar com halos de anjo mas eu sou apenas um homem

e na decisão de amar ou odiar Eu tropeço e com fúria eu levanto minhas mãos para a face da santidade atingida por punhos destrutivos que não me levam ao mais alto céu

meus pés não me servem para alcançar o lugar abençoado e meus pensamentos eu navego para lugares frios onde não há luz

hoje peço permissão para entrar na casa da minha mãe

e que meu espírito seja nutrido por sua

conselhos medicinais onde você não está mais

sofre minha alma

e descanse

em

paz


my nature

the

time

of seeing

me as i am

a human of stellar bone

walking on the wrong paths with timid steps

to the temple of antiquity where all secrets die in perfectly still silence

in the fight i against myself  i do not understand my nature wanting to fly with angel wings i’m just man

and in the decision to love or hate i stumble and with fury raise my hands to the face of sanctity hitting with destructive fists that do not take me to the highest heaven

feet don’t serve me to reach the blessed place  my thoughts I navigate to cold places where there is no light

this day begging to have permission to enter my mothers’ house

and may my spirit be nourished by their

medicinal advice where my soul

will not suffer

and rest

in

peace

detachment

the thoughts i had of you

as the dark of the night nodded off

and the rays of the yellow dwarf

slid through softly open curtains

reminding me that there wasn’t any romance between us

but when your phantom fingers stroked my mind

the imagination of the woman you turned me to

thrusted me into an explosive fantasy

my time was wrong again

she was calm after

i tore her from her family

never did she whimper

as her life bled out from her

and as she slowly perished

the beauty shone in her purity

she still hung on for you

shame grazed me after

she looked at me and smiled

that night my flower passed away

in my cold hand trembling at

the sight of your invisibility

she was a symbol of all you

meant to me