man creates his prison bars
in rods of dustless time
b.c.s, quantums, leaps, bounds,
seconds, aeons, even Chronicles
and Psalms
Alphas and Omegas
terrible endless frontiers
and there You are
all Light inside of us
man creates his prison bars
in rods of dustless time
b.c.s, quantums, leaps, bounds,
seconds, aeons, even Chronicles
and Psalms
Alphas and Omegas
terrible endless frontiers
and there You are
all Light inside of us
the beauty of it all
lies in her infinity
born into a simple and unlimited existence
the diamonds in her eyes are as gods to me
so small a creature am i.
she offers the bounty of allness
and the sacredness of truth
but my arms are only capable of meager embrace
flanked on all sides by my humble humanity.
in august
the sky is violet and the fire
warm
the clouds linger a soft
cottony shadow
the moon sits upon her throne
and i wait for the silence to sound off
beloved
Father
all i’ve known
and You are still
and shut to me
the west claims
me through my
sickened blood and
terms so foreign
i long for You
to open wide and
take me from
this abstract place
so autumn now is
here again and those
who’ve gone i can’t
replace; they were never here
Father of the east
call to me and claim
me as i am with
sullied heart
the broken bones
of battles lost
and smiles tainted
with grief
oh Holy One
in lone direction
let the Kingdom
come at last to me
my favorite hour is at 3:07 a.m. your ramblers are spent. the streets are hot with discontent and happiness. your building walls are tired. there is hope and despair. the lights flicker off and off and sometimes on. dear Broadway i love you so. i want to drop dead on your asphalt and sink in forever. your silent strength feeding and nourishing all staggers of life. days are lived fast upon you. the letters, the pictures, the breaths, the gasps; cultivator of all that. your façade oozing with corporate swag, but your soul, your spirit profound, pure, wild and capricious, like a beautiful woman. i want to roll in your soot, trip on your cracks and see your ghosts who lived in you and of you, my beloved Broadway. speak easy of my dreams, mistress keeper of my veins in your dark little alleys. i love you so Broadway. i want you all to myself, no man, woman or creature can have you. you are my mother, when no one is willing to be. you are my father when all are too cowardly. you gave me karate movies, 8-tracks and joy. you gave me advice, caution and wisdom. you are my mistress, chancellor of my education and intuitions. you are my eyes into the past that lingers in my most penultimate remembrances as a child falling down by your fire hydrant. to you, who has always been the only one who understands my twistedness and carcinomatous fevers, i write to you fair goddess, keeper of myself. i love you so my beloved Broadway. thank you for keeping me in your implorations.
peering from the years of worn
child love fills up the aura
God has looked upon me
tiny giant’s hands that have built
epochs and eras of mad love
for life in free range cages
i now come face to face with me
with a perfect mirror and my
fears and crazy inexpressible
love with madness of fever
i at long lost have been
answered
in one single
blink
blazing to the highest heavens
but how can i measure
i’m ill equipped
i am not God
touching my way on the ground
just like one that lived before
the Psalms were written
i do not know how to swim
out of water
Mohawk street is not the same
the houses are familiar
in the vagueness of my name
teacup roses are all now full of moss
the churches are different
than when i was knee long high
i cried out as silently as i could
is the world changing
or am i
so he said don’t look up
little darling or your pistachio
eyes will turn to coal
so i said no they won’t
but i did not believe my words
although against logic
i looked up anyway
so can you see stars and lines
or dark dark bubbles on the car
doors my little darling
your eyes are red
no i said so i can keep
looking unbeknown to him
i really wanted to burn
my eyes out to stop the future
from charging me
so listen my petite
devil i cannot let you
look up anymore
so place this hat upon your
head and know that God is always
above you
i know i am beneath
but can i have an orange
oh no no i want a pickle
with pastrami instead
i could not see but i lied
anyway
so you think you’re
hungry? we have food
in the car follow me
but don’t look up and if you’re
good we can roll down the
hill together
i wear my sin like a diamond
please forgive me Son of Man
my soul is running away from me
my spirit has leapt off and is far far away
i wear my sin like a diamond
forgive me
the maggot in the wound brings clarity
at times
frail in discontentment
the argument is lost
i wore my sin like a diamond
as You hung by Your bones
against the cross
the die is in my pocket
my life the corner
where it rolled
i wear my sin like a diamond
my spear in my side
too close to close
forgive me Father
in words that are so true
i roll and roll
the eyes of snakes
i wear my sin like a diamond
today i open my eyes and rise to another day. it’s a special day and i am grateful. so many hours, so many days have come and gone. i am grateful for that too. for in that time frame i have become a little wiser or at least better able to survive. i worry that in the process of survival i will forget to dream. you have always cradled my dreams alameda street. today is extra special with Our Lady Queen of Angels hosting all of the believers who also survive in any way they can. i can afford some day-dreaming and wasting of time, but those days are slowly withering away, eroding like the bricks on your side my Lady. with faith you were risen and from these rocks and clay; from faith i was allowed to be born, but a different path had to be followed so that i might be here right now. had a more popular road been chosen for me, i would not be here with you fair Queen. now in your smog and your electric heat and rules and stop lights, i will faithfully rise again tomorrow and spill out unto the alameda once more.