i guess now
i have to haul
ass on my
own. my dog, my tree,
my home, my
life. all put away,
in the
chambers of my heart.
damn it
woman. how can it go on?
i chase
your scent, the ring in your
sound. the
laugh in the rain, the pound
in your
heart. and there i stand.
though
broken i am not. i never said anything
to this
thought. but you who made me whole,
when i said
i could no more. you made me move.
in a
direction in front of me.
the wind
walks on rice paper. no trail of
you i see. footsteps
in the river of
forgiveness
washing me free, today and forever.
this is
what you left for me.
as i sit
alone in this bed of
my own
humanity. i feel your touch of love
and there
is a 6 a.m. in every hour. you are
in the sun,
the moon, the stars, the fog.
you are in
the laughter of my
sons and
the tenderness of my daughters.
your steel
of spirit in the doves on
city cables.
in the potted sage.
put me in
my proper place,
when you
receive me in His kingdom.
until then
coffee and cigs;
6 a.m. in life unrepentant.
-to Jane and Hank-