





your fingers cured as leather
surprise my cheek and bottom lip
by instinct i recoil
i know you felt it
i smile face looking down
you look at the alley
changing the subject
to how fast flowers die
after being picked without chemical support
by instinct i recoil
paranoid that you might be talking about me
later on in the cobalt night
sitting on my kitchen counter
hoping that maybe those lived in fingers
might think of caressing me again


wet sand stink in my nose
thoughts of another month gone
but funny thing
im walking on my city street
Master Reeves literature check
big ass cup of iced Americano check
sun shining on my head check
to the left of my short shank
a begging tent with liquor spills
to the right of my short shank
my jean ripped on a baby palm tree
traffic below the Wilshire boulevard bridge
connecting insanity and greed
sometimes an old woman will shake her fist
at the medical marijuana rig
going at a breakneck slow speed
at the corner the fruit vendor speaks
to his regulars about the Trump defeat
but i squeeze by avoiding getting sucked in
to consequences of a life so alien to me
well i’ve never been to Pensicola or
Miami FLA im from Californayay
my lips pucker out a lame refrain
then i wonder about Bettie Page
her life as a saint
it gets late
sky hued like wild honey
littered is my view
with COVID warnings
i reach to pick at the mask round my neck
in respect for a millennial child
with each crispy step to my place
traces of hurled up chow mein
discarded condom wraps
and leaflets notifying me Jesus saves

why the blue in you
when your starlight shines like gold
where have you gone sky
looking up i see
nothing but bricks and metal
angels tip toe here
clouds in my eyes poof
under the hardened street light
hungover kisser



in a room 1942 there i stood walking slow lights aglow in silent agony
across my street i heard the feet of the walkers in the dark
my eyes they’d dart inside and out of those walls that did contain me
on my lips a hunger creeped that caused my throat to scream in silence
and in these halls the books do hold the history of everything
my arms they mourn that he is gone away from the safety of my hold
and in this home i live alone because outside there stands the lie that is the bane of my existence