hesitant

/ mbrazfieldm

it doesn’t seem so long ago

that i smoked some cloves

was listening to the Pogues

and drifted into some world war

that i’ve only seen in film

over at Grauman’s Chinese theater

my blues are turning black

and though i opted out of methadone

it never meant that i was strong

will i ever say farewell and laser off the scars

of the circumstances of our battles

at two i’m getting up to pee

the midnight birds are wrapping up

the roosters will shortly crow their song

across the street with the old Japanese couple

i like to think that yesterday’s gash was really a fluke

but the book teaches that we must be quite honest

not being responsible enough to make a decision

i straighten out the linen closet instead

until the sun washes away my pain with her golden arms of fire

11 thoughts on “hesitant”

  2. You are hesitant to do something
    cause you don’t know it will do good
    all that you do you think is worthless
    that it won’t work even as firewood.

    If your blues are turning black now
    is because of black in the darkness
    no wonder you’re waiting for the Sun
    you know it will bring light in the day
    so you don’t feel fear and hopeless.

    I must say, don’t feel like this anymore
    because if you feel hesitant and alone
    you must know deep in your heart
    even in this dark, you have support!

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